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I like pizza


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joppiesaus: i am become spooked by your name
Spookay Gish: Spoopysaus
joppiesaus: *ghost sounds*
Spookay Gish: O-o-o-o-o-O-o-o-O!!
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Spookay Gish: Hai
joppiesaus: hai
Spookay Gish has changed their name to Пират - пидорас.
Пират - пидорас has changed their name to Spookay Gish.

It simply is not true? I know, butterflies, more important than 300 deaths which are based on the number of high school, I have peace.

Monkeys trained to fight, and I'm not a military sniper. You anything, but it was not. We wanted to determine the sex. I mean, I see the face of the earth.

If you think you can find something on the Internet? Evo cars. Be prepared for hidden spy network in the United States to attack the larvae of intellectual property rights, I must say better. The storm destroyed painful memories. Half of the children died. You can do it anywhere and I can already killed hundreds of hands. This is wrong, but smaller oil reserves, like an old man "that some phones Navy to play ugly." But now we can not pay ridiculous prices. I do not want to disrupt their wounds.

Half of the children died.

I only smoke weed when I need to
And I need to get some rest, yo, where's the sex
I confess, I burnt a hole in the mattress
Yes, yes, it was me, I plead guilty

And on the count of three I pull back the duvet
Make my way to the refrigerator
One dry potato inside, no lie
Not even bread, jam

When the light above my head went bam
I can't sleep, something's all over me
Greasy, insomnia please release me
And let me dream about making mad love on the heath

Tearing off tights with my teeth
But there's no relief
I'm wide awake in my kitchen
It's black and I'm lonely
Oh if I could only get some sleep
Creaky noises make my skin creep
I need to get some sleep
I can't get no sleep


I see that I have gained two "followers", both with awesome websites! When I first saw that, I suddenly felt that there was an expecatation that I suddenly needed to live up to. I do not know where this feeling comes from! But I don't think that's really the case; they probably followed me because they liked my website and would like to see what it will become in the future - or something like that.

I like tea

I miss MSN. I really do. All my buddies were on there. You could play games. You could chat. You could spam them with buzzers. And now, everyone is on whatsapp. I do not like whatsapp. I do not like typing on my small touchscreen keyboard. I want to type to my buddies. Maybe it's because I do not have a lot of buddies. I remember something now: The chat functionality in Steam. I like that. And I like discord, even though I do not really use it that often.

Me being CASUAL:
casual skull
aggressive skull

Featured recipes

  • Popcorn
  • Cookies
  • Pizzaaaaaa
  • Cookies
  • Cookies
  • hopp
  • This seems wrong. This is a pretty frame, but it doesn't match the theme of the content. Do I suck? I can't find the proper ASSTHETIC for this theme!!!! I....... AAARRGGHH
  • Okay... Calm down.
  • Maybe one day I'll fix it.
  • Let's upload, and then take a shower, and then go to bed.
  • I am tired.
  • OH BOOYY Scream Fortress VIII!!!
  • Anyways I notice that I use a lot of gifs and stuff from other webpages on the internet, mainly from long abandoned web caverns. Is it ethic to use them? or not?
  • I want this website to be a little world. A world that allows me to relax. And also to do other things. :D
  • Ok I still need to do the styling but I am relaxed.
  • update 2 years later: now SCREAM FORTRESS X! yay still haven't fixed though


The Internet Archive has launched a GEOCITIES GIF SEARCH-ENGINE!


You can find search for all sorts of GREAT ANIMATED GRAPHIC INTERCHANGE FORMAT files!

Like this one: animated picture of a rose folding open


Spookay Gish: Wanna play?
joppiesaus: I want to but I'm Gold nova 4 and you're silver something so we can't :(
Spookay Gish: So it's like fucking Romeo and Juliett?
joppiesaus: :steamsalty: yes
Spookay Gish: What an ending
Spookay Gish: He came to her
Spookay Gish: Drank acid
Spookay Gish: Died
Spookay Gish: She woke up
Spookay Gish: Killed herself
joppiesaus: really
Spookay Gish: FIN.
Spookay Gish: Yes
joppiesaus: that is not what they told me at school
joppiesaus: stupid school
Spookay Gish: So-o-o-o...
Spookay Gish: Wanna play?
joppiesaus: yes
joppiesaus: but I once again don't have anyone to invite
Spookay Gish: I have

My online - or computer - life is perhaps the most fragmented thing to ever come out of me. It violates every advice that friendly froge supplies. It has been build on a foundation of a seven-year old kid exploring the web. Weak passwords, same account names, lack of self-privacy, and more.

I have learned myself how to program stuff. This never-ending journey is quite fun. But at the moment I don't know where to go with it, or what to do next.

When I first installed Lubuntu - a form of wildebeest/Linux - on my computer, I felt freedom.

I'm not sure what I want with this website. I haven't decided it if I want to this to be my anonymous little world with venting and weird stuff that might put people I know into shyness. I am not sure what I want. Heck, but the decision has - untintionally - already been made. joppiesaus. If you search that, you'll be able to find a lot of pages that have similairities with this one. You'll be able to find my name, my age, a picture of me, code that will make you cry, my email, maybe even my location.

I also have other sites that I don't really feel like represent me (anymore).

But why would I stay anonymous for the things I create? I mean, me is me. Why should I be ashamed of myself if it's really me? I don't know how to explain it!

I don't know what to do. I have made a huge mess. But for now, this will be my little website-world. With skeletons. And ghosts. 👻👻👻

Oh and also froghand there is a thing called gzip compression and it is particulairy useful for destroying duplicate data, so the whitespace and all the yuk overhead will be much smaller.

I am very tired. I sleep 11-12 hours a day. I need to carefully watch my energy and plan accordingly. I am usually tired all day. When I do something like going to a party for a few hours, I can't do anything but rest the days following up. I try to minimize this by not going that long and getting as comfortable as possible. It makes me feel fragile and incompetent. I enjoy doing stuff, even if it's short, though.

If humans are going to colonize Mars, what would the internet look like? Will there be two internets, one on Mars, one on Earth? Or would there be a interplanetary super internet? Would it be decentralized, so that two copies of the same internet are on both planets and get synced up?

I have a G R E A T idea!!!!! Gymnastics at work!!!!!!!!!!!111111!!1`12@#@ I mean, you know those 9-17 jobs right? You sit ALL DAY long. That can't be healthy, and I think that must get pretty boring. But what if you have some gymnastics every day! Or at least a few days! Then ALL people from the WHOLE office go to a gymnastic room, and then do fun gymnastics together! Sporting together is A LOT more fun then sporting alone, I think. Imagine playing Dodgeball together with your colleagues!

jeez. Ads again? This is so annoying. "YOU NEED THIS SHAMPOO, IT MAKES YOUR LIFE GREAT AND IF YOU DON'T BUY THIS SHAMPOO YOUR LIFE WILL BE MISERABLE FOR EVER AND ETERNITY!" No I don't want this. No. Please. I just want to watch that program. Why do I have to watch this? Why does it have to be like this? What went wrong in this world? Is capitalistic society so great after a- AWWW YISSS IT STARTS :D

Shining light
Another day turns in to rain
Eternal fight
I waited all my life

Take me away
Million miles away from here
Take me away
Find the place for you and me
You taken me higher
Highest I could be
You take me away
Forever you and me
Take me away

The tears I cried
Kept the morning shined
I needed time
To make up my mind
Take me away
Million miles away from here
Take me away
Find the place for you and me
You taken me higher
Highest I could be
You take me away
Forever you and me
Take me away

Just take me away
Million miles away from here
Take me away
Find the place for you and me
You taken me higher
Highest I could be
You take me away
Forever you and me
Take me away


I was watching tv, and then I wanted to watch a program for the start, so I press a button on my remote which let me do that - one of the benefits of digital television. But then I wanted to forward a little, AND THE STUPID BOX SAID "THIS CHANNEL WON'T LET YOU FORWARD". WTF? This proves that that media company(in my case ISP) is only there for the money and not for the one who is paying and watching. (I used to be able to forward)

This is not the first WTF of my ISP. Their internet is decent, except for the fact that you also have to pay for tv, email and phone if you want internet, which of course has a ridiculous starting price. Oh, and this ISP together with an other ISP have more than 80% of the available market in the country. A few months ago, there was half a day no internet aswell. My main complaint of their internet is the lack of improvement(probably because they already got a huge part of the market). A few years ago, there sure was! And I know there are a lot of improvements that can be made, but development seems to have stagnated.

Their tv box is so slow. When you press a button, you'll have to wait 1-3 seconds to see something happening on the screen. Humans are not made for that kind of patience. You are able to "record" at an additional fee, but you only have so-many space. After a year they are thrown away. They aren't saved locally; rather it's more of an "pointer" to a start and end date and time of the program in combination with the broadcaster. When you "play" the recording, you request that time to be downloaded to the box. That reason given, I don't think there is a "need" for space, really.

I just want to watch some creative work and enjoy it. Why do things have to be like this.

I want freedom.

(Also, I may not be right about the numbers and stuff - but you get the idea. and it's a rant and an opinion blah blah)

It was tuesday the 28th, October 2014. I woke up late. Too late. I was exhausted, even thought the day before I was at home, doing nothing. Heck, I had one week vacation before it! I quickly changed my clothes, my mother prepared some bread for me, but there was no time to eat it. I had to go to the bus station, otherwise I would miss my bus. Afterall, it was a big day.

I was going to a school where you could go after your high school. To educate further, like an university. I looked forward to it, because, well it seemed fun to see that.

But my stomach, my head, and some other body parts didn’t agree that time. I felt really weak. My body went with the bus. My stomach was feeling odd. I was really hungry.

So I got to there, eating only half a piece of bread. I met the rest of my class, where I never could find my place in. We had to wait for 40 minutes. Standing. That felt horrible. The headache and the ill feeling just wouldn’t stop.

Then we went through all sorts of boring stuff. Talks about “your future”, and how “awesome” this school is. “Yeah! Look at us! Programming in motherfuckin’ Visual Basic! That can’t do the school next door, right? Come to us, and you’ll have an wonderful fun and rich career!”

Thankfully, the pause arrived. Enough already. We all got a energy bar full with sugar! And unhealthy drinks that have also lots of sugars in it! And Caffeine, too! Boy, after 4 hours awake without a breakfast, those sugars, those acids, were great! I suddenly felt very energized, after those boring hours of nothingess and the long time of exhausting hunger.

Then, more boring stuff. I made a small car wooden car that runs on elastics. yey. How educating and fun is this school(irony). That was what I realised after making it, but during it I was very impulsive and unfocussed, but very energized. So it was fun, and I was like “WOOAAA IT DRIVESSS” while almost not paying attention to what anyone says. After that, we had a lunch. With proper sandwitches! I ate 2 of the huge things, and then put another one in my bag to eat later.

Yes. You guessed it. We had to go to your school after it. But that was OK. Since those things were really tasty. I was full of energy. I felt happy. I practically didn’t care about anyone in school. I walked very happily throught it.

I went to my advanced math class, did some stuff, then went home. While waiting for the bus I thought “nah let’s don’t go to school anymore”. Just out of nothing. I didn’t think about that earlier or something.

That was my final day.

I told my parents, and they just sort of had to deal with it. They dealt with it nicely, even thought they didn’t like it, because they really, really did their best for me to do school.

I did well.

I went the past few weaks after that to English class, but that was it. It was more for fun then for anything else. Just sitting back in class. Paying attention, having fun.

Linux Sucks

This is a piece of text with experiences of me with Linux that sucked. If you like this, check out Bryan Lunduke's Linux Sucks.

I actually love Linux! I love to program on it, and to do kewl stuff with terminals, and of course, to just use it.

  • Did you install Linux on a laptop, and then the Wi-Fi did not @!#f@ work?
  • Have you tried to put your nice laptop to a tv, so that the sound and video goes over the TV? I still haven't managed to do that.
  • You can do sudo chmod -R / and it won't tell you that destroying your system is probably not what you want.


FruitGish has changed their name to Douk Nouk Kem.
joppiesaus: gagagaga douk nouk kem
joppiesaus: HAHAHA
Douk Nouk Kem: i shutt
Douk Nouk Kem: alien
Douk Nouk Kem: from losangeles

Some of the stuff I like (or used to like) to consume! (Not in a particular order)


  • Aanmodderfakker (2014)
  • Melancholia (2011)
  • The Lobster (2015)
  • The Martian (2015)
  • Gravity (2013)
  • Plan C (2012)
  • TBS (2008)
  • Doodslag (2012)
  • Minoes (2001)
  • Hasta la Vista (2011)
  • J. Kessels (2015)
  • Isabelle (2011)
  • Where to Invade Next (2015)
  • Something Better To Come (2015)
  • Amreeka (2009)
  • Get Out (2017)
  • Full Force (2019) (link)
  • Gett: The Trial of Viviane Amsalem (2014)
  • Lola rennt (1998)
  • Don't Look Up (2021)
  • Licorice Pizza (2021)
  • Harry Potter

TV shows

  • Modern Family
  • Bob's Burgers
  • South Park
  • Louie
  • Spongebob Squarepants
  • Fairly Odd Parents
  • Rundfunk
  • Better Things
  • Moonbeam City
  • Dunya & Desie
  • Het Klokhuis
  • Workaholics


  • Minecraft
  • Counter-Strike: Global Offensive
  • RollerCoaster Tycoon
  • Need for Speed: Underground
  • Age of Empires II
  • Commander Keen 5
  • Pajama Sam
  • Kerbal Space Program
  • Team Fortress 2
  • Undertale
  • Portal 2
  • SOMA
  • Penumbra
  • Just Cause 2
  • Saints Row: The Third
  • Alien: Isolation
  • Half-Life
  • Dungeon Keeper
  • Halo
  • Far Cry 2

... and a lot more!


a photograph of my website with a long shutter time and movement my website viewed on a ereader More

A fresh wind is blowing through my life (does this make sense?)

boat is like drugs too much drugs and you die but not as a skeleton i mean for real man dont do boat ~anonymous

I feel crap right now and that's ok

I have 1 chiken and a cock in the backyard. First we had 5 chiken and 1 cock. but then one night later a chiken disappeared. The next night, two. Then another one. Then nothing happened. no eggs anymore.

soemtimes i feel shit ;(
the end

sponge and seacucumber, coral, irrawaddy dolphin

Nasikabatrachus bhupathi

Thanks to the internet, you can order socks and underpants on the internet, pay for socks and underpants on the internet, and receive socks and underpants right at your home!

I like the wind. It calms me.

How to make yourself feel bad

  • Stop going outside. Choose a room and live in it. Don't get out. Stay still and be inert. Be one with your laundry.
  • Sleep as irregularly as possible. Make sure you never wake up or go to bed at the same time and that the duration of your sleep varies extremely.
  • Abandon all exercise. Be nothing. Be as static as your matter can be.
  • Feed yourself with bad news of which you have no control over. Don't think about if it's useful to know or not.
  • When you decide you want to do something, only do it in ways that's not going to make any difference, then blame other people for it.(i.e. update your profile picture with "save the whales", retweet a tweet even though you have no followers)
  • Spend time on "social media" to see how everyone is doing better than you(normally they don't; they just post the good times. Nobody is on social media when they're having a great time; they just put something on it afterwards.)
  • If you must so: Make ridiculous goals that are enormously big. Make the goal vague and the path towards it unclear. Aim ridiculously high so that you will never succeed. Instead of "Go for a walk outside" do "I'll finish first on the marathon today". It's not a good example since you need to avoid going outside and do exercise. Do not determine a time to do this goal; wait for motivation to achieve this goal instead.
  • Be one with your screen. Don't let things like sleep or exercise distract you.
  • Let the screen also feed you negative emotions. Let it feed your anxiety and anger over things you have of which you are of no influence.
  • Be happy. Be happy all day. Make happiness something euphoric, permanent, delusional and unreachable so that you'll never feel satisfaction again. Focus on this fata morgana.
  • Your brains are going to tell you were to go at some point. But you can direct it. Direct it towards your miserable practices!
  • Pursue perfection so that you'll never reach your goal in order to make yourself feel bad.
  • TODO: Eat bad.
  • Buy products that claim they will make your life great. Regret it when you don't buy them because well - you don't have a great life. If you don't buy deodorant, you will never find a suitable partner to create offspring with. Buy products that solve problems you don't even know was a problem. Vote for a candidate that will make the earth great. Adopt beliefs that will reserve you a place in the afterlife and do the things they tell you to do. Start to dig conspiracy theories.
  • Live how others want you to live. Go into law school; your grandfather would be proud. Don't wear that what you want to wear; you'll look like a fool. Conform to them. Don't want to drink a beer? that's socially akward - do it anyways. Blame yourself for this. Think about this more.
  • Feed your worries. Your worries are like tomato plants. Give them plenty of water(attention). Feed them. Yes. Don't go out because you are afraid of that dog of the neighbours. Let them grow. Biiiggg tomatoes. Keep these worries for youself though.
  • Blame yourself when things aren't working out as you want them.
  • Compare yourself unfavorably against others.
  • Never stop improving yourself!
  • Subscribe to /r/GetMotivated

Source: (fortunately or unfortunately) Me, this video by CGP grey

How to feel better tacky smiley

These help for me personally, I don't know if you'll experience the same, I'm not a doctor

  • Exercise
  • Schedule going to bed. Make sure you don't do intense activities before it.
  • Eat well!
  • Get out occasionally!
  • It's OK to have a day things don't really work out.

This may not work for you. It might not work instantaneous

I'm kind of in a struggle myself right now

Library of shame

joppiesaus: I don't know what this means but I saw this in the comments of a drivable gyrocopter: СТАВЬ ЛАЙК ЕСЛИ АДМИН МУРЗИЛКИ ПЕТУХ
Douk Nouk Kem: That's the literal
Douk Nouk Kem: Murzilka is probably some VK group
joppiesaus: are you actually serious
Douk Nouk Kem: Or a channel
Douk Nouk Kem: Yeah
joppiesaus: https://youtube.be/GfMNtCPChxo
Douk Nouk Kem: Петух is literally a chicken
Douk Nouk Kem: But is used more often as faggot
Douk Nouk Kem: Like HUEHUEHUE
Douk Nouk Kem: Oh you
Douk Nouk Kem: Memelord
Douk Nouk Kem: You
Douk Nouk Kem: ;)
Douk Nouk Kem: Gonna get a shower, brb
Douk Nouk Kem: Without my dad Kappa
joppiesaus: sup my dood
joppiesaus: soupp my dood
FruitGish: soup
FruitGish: SOUCC
FruitGish: DUDE
FruitGish: SALMIAK
FruitGish: LEFT
FruitGish: nice
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I want to test if I get shadowbanned or censored if I put a piratebay link on my webpage: so here is an excellent documentary about The Pirate Bay called TPB AFK (magnet link)

The Pirate Bay is a way of consuming - or something idk

It's been a while so I guess not?

Today I read A.N. Lucas's Halloween 2017 page, where he describes that he missed perhaps his last chance to go trick or treating.

It reminded me of myself being in such an situation. I'm not sure when it was, but it was around a time I thought it was time to "grow up". I was extremely insecure and self-conscious, trying to "fit in". I followed fashion(or I tried) and did all sorts of stupid stuff.

My friend called, I hadn't seen him for quite some time. He asked if we'd go trick-or-treating this Halloween. I said: "I think we are too old for this.". We didn't go. We never went trick-or-treating again.

Which may sound reasonable, but at the time I was think 12, maybe 13..? I have no idea. The point is that I was obviously a kid, and we could've easily pulled it off.

But most of all, where we live, halloween isn't a thing. It doesn't exist. Few know about the irish fest that went to america that didn't come over here. It was already ridiculous, therefore age wouldn't matter that much, as long as you were young I suppose.

I was either dressed as a ghost or as a zombie thinggy with a fake bolt through my head, he is dressed as a vampire??? So we went through the village door by door in the dark, when somebody opened a door we would yell a poorly translated trick or treat, or candy or your life. A lot of people didn't have candy. Some people were confused, so we explained now and then.

Some people were like "I don't have any candy but I do have fruit", and then my friend would say "I'm sorry we can no longer accept any fruit. Previous year we got a lot of fruit, and we failed to consume it all.". Hilarious! I can still remember my face sweating because of the costume. Some people gave whole chocolate bars - mostly relatively old pleasantly surprised people. Some people just gave some candy. But in the end, we both had quite some candy, I think at least 1 kg, I'm not sure how much. But it was very fun. I think it accomplished, even though the lack of people doing it. I loved it. Thank you, friend!

Why do many people see climate change as a burden and get defensive about it? Why don't they see it as a oppurtunity to discard old stuff and create something cool? Will computers be able to be concious in the future? Will we prefer personal robots over human contact? Why does humanity sometimes go backwards in progress instead of forwards? Do people forget why we live in peace together? Are people short-sighted? Why do humans not see obvious evidence but instead look for something else? Will humans one day be able to upload their conciousness to a computer? Would that move their existence, or fork it? Would they want to? Electric airplanes seemed far fetched - like electric cars once were, but now they are starting to get cheaper per km - But is that still true today? Someone did the pioneering. That's amazing.

Can you both be happy and be a realist? It's not a coincidence a lot of depressed people are realistic. Perhaps people are naive and optimistic because otherwise they would get unhappy. It's weird that people value their life more and spend it differently knowing that they'll die in a year, whereas if they don't know when, they spend it differently.

Guess what? I'LL NEVER BE AN ADULT!! this site is always going to be stuff like this!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

also i planted seeds and hopefully it will be a flower but it's been a week and still nothing so yeah if it doesn't come out i'll plant something else

oh yesterday i was exceedingly sad and i made this


UPDATE: the seeds haven't germinated yet, instead some of them started to grow some sort of fungus on them. I'll plant new ones!

UPDATE 2: I planted seeds on a piece of ground a while ago, these are now beautiful kinds of flowers!

Things that clearly are not the end of the world, but still make me upset

  • My favorite clothing store closing down.
  • I can no longer find the legendary Kwekkeboom draadjesvlees kroket :( HOWEVER, I have found a great alternative, it's a bit harder to get but it's great, so this no longer makes me sad
  • Unnecessary idling of engines. I don't know why.
  • I am not able to acquire a Dubai lamp

Dreams. In my dreams, I don't have to be anything, there are no expectations. I'm not thinking of the past, nor worrying about the future, I don't have to do anything, it all just happens to me and I just let it go over me.

dream journal