Basically a journal post but a little more elaborate. Don't know what to call it.
So today I was kind of a little down. I had one of those surf-the-the-internet-like-a-zombie sessions and ran into a mental health indicative assesment list, and I filled it in. I got a normal result, and I wasn't surprised. Things have been good lately. I have more energy, I do stuff, I usually don't feel numb and I experience moments of happiness. I can conclude that my situation has improved the last two years, something I am glad about.
Of course there are still plenty of difficult things, social life, managing energy, where I want my life to go... there always be stuff like this.
Today I didn't feel nice in some aspects, but tomorrow is a new day, and it's nice to know that stuff has become better for me. No longer do I feel often sad or numb.
Ok different story. Friday I went to get a new passport since it expired. I forgot my ancient ID card so I couldn't get a new one, but then I stopped by the bicycle shop to look for a new bicycle. And boy have I found one, it's so much better than the thing I have now! Today I went back and ordered it in a bigger size, I look forward to using it. And also ordered a passport.
But it begs the question, why in the name of m. coïtus didn't I do this earlier? I just realised I have spent at least 4 years on a crappy bicycle, even though I ride it nearly every day. The gears a worn, it doesn't change gears properly, if you put too much torque on the pedals the chain jumps, the saddle/seat isn't high enough, the tires are worn... Why?
I did dread to go look for a new bicycle. Was it going to fit? How would I choose? I can't be sure which one is the best! But then it all turned out to be OK. Easy, even. Couldn't I make up my mind that I didn't need to choose earlier, and that I could always just try, nothing else? djeez...
Anyways, this inspired me to not do this again. My matress needs a replacement soonish, so I better look for one! 9(?) years ago I found a great one, so this time hopefully too!
and now some thoughts:
lol remember when games didn't have all this lootbox ass addictive stuff? Where did it all go wrong? Team fortress 2? Or were the mobile games earlier... hmmmm
Why is in english the pineapple called pineapple? Why not ananas like a lot of other languages? strange... Also an ananas has little to do with a pine nor an apple. Probably going to call pineapple ananas from now on.
why am i writing this right before bedtime lol
Another why: Why doesn't my HTML editor autocomplete HTML tags? vewwy annoyingghghgh.... I actually love the web editor. Why don't I use it more often for stuff like this?
Also I don't know what to do with my site. Also I want to share personal stuff. But also not. And also, people I know know about my site. I don't know how to deal with this. Should I just put up super personal stuff? I don't know. I am worried that people will use stuff I write on my website against me. This is probably not realistic, but despite this it's still a worry like most worryworryworries. Or that it's super emberassing or something.
Anyways, I'll keep on going with my site and my life, see u l8r m8ies!!!!!!